Tag: sorry

I’m So Sorry

I’m So Sorry

A colleague of mine committed suicide and I can’t seem to forgive myself for not being able to do anything for him. It breaks my heart to know that he was in so much pain and I couldn’t comfort him. I’m just so sorry…so so sorry.

 

I need to say I’m sorry
If in any way I let you down
That I didn’t do a thing
When I witnessed your frown

You stood there in the hallway
Looking lost and confused
I wanted to ask if you were fine
But within me I then refused

I feared you’d be embarrassed
I feared I’ll enhance the pain
Now forever in my heart
This grave regret will remain

Maybe my words of comfort
Would have done you some good
Maybe if I had spoken
You would have felt understood

Maybe you wouldn’t have decided
To take your life this way
Maybe I could have extended
With your family your stay

Wherever you are right now
I pray that you’re all right
That you are now at peace
With yourself no longer fight

My Bad

My Bad

Sometimes we’re stuck to our belief and are convinced that it is the truth, so much so that we cannot see beyond it. Sometimes we’re just portraying what we wish were true. It’s all a big joke…a big lie.

 

It took me one look in your direction,

And I finally got it, in my head,

You have never left me,

You’ve been living your life instead.

 

Our being close, our friendship,

Was all one big illusion,

We are mere acquaintances,

You are not my companion.

 

I’ve been sad all this while,

In heart accusing you of deception,

The only fault of yours in this,

Was once giving me a reception.

 

I took that as a hopeful rope,

And clung onto it with life dear,

You have done nothing wrong,

It was my mistake sheer.

 

Yes you did say you’d be there,

But people say things all the time,

It’s nothing to get cross over,

Not as if you’ve committed a crime.

 

It’s wrong for me to have expected,

For you to love me, as I do you,

It’s time to move on with my life,

Once again to a fallacy new.